Richard on the Side2020-12-29T08:48:37-07:00

Copper Gaylore galore huh? wth..

I dont know where I get this headlines they just pop into me brain OK, so I have been connecting with my Native American side, in a more meaningful way, lately, and that brought me to the plight of  the local San Carlos Apache band, which had been relocated from Rich Copper land, the land which sits near superior and runs all the way up to Miami and Globe, the destruction is clear, raped land, raped and barren, it looks kinda cool in some places, but compared to the existing paradise, it is a shame, Oak Flats Campground, it is Beautiful, I can see why the Apache band loves this land, it is in the desert, but Not. so close but so far, you head to superior, go though a pretty much abandoned town, still bustling, but many boarded up and shoddy places, same as [...]

good times bad times

well had gig to do, ended up bailing, it was a classic bait and switch, nice  sweet customer turns into ATTILLA the hun, so I show up to modify an underground driveway, simple enough, well tough job, but no problem, I was ready to work, they were having problems with their small cars  and being able to get them into the basement.  I asked them to drive down so I could make sure I get the right adjustments, NO WAY, I almost burned up my clutch, hmm that is not my problem, learn how to drive with a  clutch, or get an automatic, I burned up my share of clutches, so alright I could figure it out with some boards, her front end clearance was only 3" and extended out 18" so I had to get it to lift at that point, while I figured [...]

the challenges of living a stress free life… what they be?

well today for me, I was thinking this pre workout stuff, which is said to burn fat better, than without using it, at least to clinical studies, hard to drink, I was thinking I would guzzle down some rock gut whiskey, not often, but even worse, have you ever drank Mad Dog 20/20, that shit is nasty, we grew up on boonze farm, southern comfort and Michelob beer, at least in SC, we used to go to the local 7/11 and ask strangers to buy us some beer, with our money of course, but it never took longer than a few minutes, crazy huh? The Marijuana from those days was called "Commercial" it was all sticks and stems,  and it was harsh stuff, and you had to smoke way more than the stuff of today, I was reading this brain doctor that said, if you [...]

mind your own business and you wont be minding mine ;/

haahhah but we all like to hear what is going on in each others lives, well well what have we here. I know, I have been on kinda a negative, monstrous tear lately, hopefully I will be getting a better perspective, but actually have been on a life epiphany of sorts. I still live by dont sweat the small things, I am breathing walking, talking and still have freedom of movement, free speech and my mental facilities, although I am sure that can and always will be subjective 😉 My thought today, as I venture forth into our world. relationships and who's business is it?  disclaimer: this are my opinions, and they are subject to change, without warning or notice I do not think, parents, friends, children or anybody, should be privy to the relationships of  any magnitude in any of the mentioned relationships, Can [...]

strike 3 your out

I stuck out today, It was awful, not the end of the world, far worse things can happen, it was right before I was slated to pitch an inning. my focus was no longer on batting, I had gotten 1 good shot for a double on the day, the others should have been played, but I did scor3 three times. love to score!! Rusty on the mound, had lots of power no control had to tone it down, didn't help my "team mates, and their negative banter"  the enemy within, I could do a whole book on just team dynamics and why it is so important, the old saying if you do not have something good to say..... well you get the point, some of them are cute manipulators. pesky, non-building tools. just catch and throw the fucken ball rich boy!! dark again, I know, [...]

BEAUTY, in the Eye of the Beholder?

What is beauty? I see beauty as something that makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside, like a sunset warms the soul. I see beauty in good people, nice people, a rare commodity in this age of the fast paced phone world. Since being a child and my first crush Trisha Pyron in the 5th grade, I have  been aware of what I thought was beautiful, I remember I was worried that maybe it would change over the years and I would no longer think the same, seems an odd thought, but that was my thinking in the 5th grade. In hindsight, looking back on my early years, although Trisha was my first crush, I had many others, well I grew up in Southern California, and you know the song, "I wish they all could be California Girls"  it is so true, California had the [...]

What is in a Name? Gratitude for those that REPRESENT families

Family Names come and go, families come and go.  This piece of work ahhah my brother gilbert used to say " he was a real piece of work" as in a piece of shit, anyway this one is about Those People in our lives, that are not their by birth, but by choice. Let start with my Grandfather Howard Carlough who represented for the Monson Clan,  and then there was Oscar Monson who represented for the Thorlakson Clan, and then on my Dad Side, Kelly Simeonoff, who adopted my father into his clan for the Ingram Clan. These are exemplary things, to give a person a name, one he  can be proud of, I was always  proud of the Simeonoff name, and wore it like a badge. growing up, I had always thought that I wanted my own family and would never take a [...]

bathroom coming along

the bathroom is coming along, I do not like tile work, it is the mixing, the dry pack is ok, but that thinset man it sticks to your hands. I put some chairs in, next time, I will know better than just trying to do it on the fly, I would not do these bathrooms on my own. sub out the tile fo sure. nightmare, can not imagine working in someones house doing that work, I think it will turn out ok though. going to be a master piece. but I see all of my mistakes :/  not perfect, maybe next time, will spend more time on the wall tiles. awful work, dirty work, yuck a mess.

my biggest issue, is the 2nd Amendment it should be your too

This is a big issue, bigger than the first Amendment. this is the only law that gives power to the people.  I am ok with the people that dont like guns oar think they should be banned, but  I do have issue with it. For one thing. We live in the Age of Peace and relative safety, we get all uptight when a few hundred people are gunned down, oooo ahhhhhhhh oooooo ahhhhhh OUTLAW guns, maybe you should learn some history?  One of the greatest Nations ever was ROME, do you think the people thought they were so powerful, that they could feel safe, this is just one county, How about the American Indians?  Genocide has been more the Norm than an aberration. not just  14, 30 43, but millions, thousands, hundreds at a time.  I am not big on guns, I have a few, [...]

Racist Rant I have 2 its criminal

Ok, I have a rant, I have been watching the news, where Asian people are being assaulted, this makes me sick,  Racism of any kind is  wrong, but targeting innocents people is downright despicable. Have we not grown past the World War years? Japanese internment camps? I think we are headed towards darker times, I do not see this just going away. There are lots of things that do not seem right. is this shit that goes on all the time, and now the press is reporting on it?  Our News is so backwards, we may have free speech, but were fed propaganda 24/7  

my granny

I like to remember my granny at times, she had lots of good insight for a Native, they were intertwined with the Russians, American and Native community. i find most of her thoughts still hold water to this day. She used to talk about how,  she was glad she married one of her own kind, both Native, and white, mixed, I think they were mostly Russian and Native, but who knows, I often wonder if there is some real truth behind this. I wonder how many mixed, as in White people marry Natives and do whatever possible to subjugate or in some cases downright sabotage them?  my imagination runs deep, maybe they are even paid to do so?   Dark thoughts? ANTS? no just wondering as you know this is my journal. well as for me, me sweet Mary is my Own kind, as in I [...]

out of my comfort zone

I have been doing  these video clips singing, or trying to :/ THEY ARE FUN I have to admit it is hard to watch, but if I can not take the heat get out of the kitchen.  fun to do though, even learning some guitar, very slowly. have to keep my mental capacity up there, do not want to end up like pops, so sad. here is the full clip just sharing me myself and eye

what is going on in my life

well glad you asked :/ I will be putting a big effort into getting this bathroom finished, with an eye on new jobs, have  few bites. geting excited about the shower, we bought a 12" shower deal with a wand, good reviews, got the tiles picked out, just have to run some more plumbing and wires, but the end is near, just have to push a little harder, then a nice jacuzzi tub and shower, I was going to put in 2 shower heads, but this 12 incher should be wonderful. the kids are all doing ok, feel detached, like life is not fair, they all have their own lives, what use am eye? has been washed up old man, perhaps dying, perhaps a hypochondriacs , perhaps going to live a long time? I have no Idea. I have been taking some meds, without supervision, [...]

The perfect world? what is it? let me tell YOU

I do a lot of whining and complaining about our society and our world, yes it is true, at 58 years, I have seen the light. I have become a student of history, WAr is our history, it is the history of man I feel very blessed, that I even have the ability to journal like this, in china, or Russia, I might be thrown into prison, or worse if I was in Syria, I would be tortured and killed. This I know is true. Most of us are so caught up in just survival, or paying bills mortgage, raising kids, that we never get a chance to "smell the roses" or in my case, analyze the truth. No matter what country you live in, you are controlled by the Government. no exceptions this is  a fact. We have great liberties in America, just not [...]

rehashing old posts reiterate incinerate..

Ok, so I have a few disclaimers: racism is bad, I do not judge people for things they can not change. We are all born into this earth in a pre-set format. We have no choice. we do have a choice, at least some of us eventually. Racism is cultural, it starts at the bottom and works it's way up.  they have had all the segregation in schools, neighborhoods, everywhere except jails and prisons. until the little diddy is addressed it will always live on. was it created by prisonous? hell no. this is governmental greed, This has been hashed out of the same  old idea of controlling populations from the Roman days of conquer. give power to certain groups, give them benefits, and control the whole group. Been the MO for every  invading Army since, well forever. who filled the prisons? government did,  instead [...]

my outhouse rant, plumbing the greatest invention EVER

We just flush, where does it go? who cares its gone. we take for granted one of, if not the most significant modern conception, the sewage system, they turn that turd you just flushed into drinking water, well drinkable water anyway, not sure if anyone drinks it of all the advances, this for me is the best, at least in the cities, my dark mind often says, look at all these people in the cities, a whole lot of shit yeah I said it shit, my ma, used to say "SHIT"  almost half funny, but we are a clean  society, well at least not piles of the stuff everywhere, can you imagine all these people crapping all over the place? nfw Then there was the great toilet paper shortage, well we never actually ran out, but I did see empty shelves, which had the manufacturers [...]

my thyroid journey

well I continue on my thyroid quest, I feel great, except when I dont. last night I had a great invention, Chicken gizzards and hearts, with garlic, mushrooms, onions, and mini tomatoes all fried up in coconut oil on the stove, it was seasoned with red peppers, garlic salt and crushed black pepper, it turned out delicous, I even liked the crunchy gizzards, which can be pesky for lunch I had 4 soft boiled eggs, I like when the center yellow is runny liquid, so good, such good vitamins. I even slipped and had a butter sandwich, which consist of  butter slathered between 2 pieces of dave's killer bread Powerseed, sweetened with organic jucies, only 1 gram per slice. butter is listed as a  thyroid helper. for desert, at about 8pm, I had my usual desert, an orange, a bowl of yogurt sweetened with a [...]


YES IT IS TRUE, i bite the hand that feeds me, or in this case, that saved me from rotting away. I feel it is time for one of my disclaimers:  Getting a potential life ending cancer is one of the most life changing or ending things that can happen to you, or in this case me. Some may think I hold resentments, h8t or loathing for the institution that saved me from rotting away, or worse dying under the hands of some Dokter jekyll. That statement could not be further from the truth. But, yeah always  a butt when faced with meeting my maker, my penchant for searches became a "Quest" my quest started after the surgery, The Mayo, went into Cancer mode, I was assigned a team of specialist. they took my picture, that was creepy, as I thought, this is my [...]

the fun begins 8 hrs in the Operating room, WTH happened in there?

So when I was diagnosed with stage 4 throat cancer, things happened very fast, after the Pet scan they scheduled a radical neck dissection, this is major surgery, I was prepped and said it would be about an hour, it was all surreal, the last thing I remember was them injecting me, then I awoke to in the recovery room,  I had to pee, I had no Idea what was going 0n, It was almost as a dream, I just remember I had to pee, real bad, and the pressure kept building up. A nurse, i presume was asking me if I was a tough guy, some nonesense like that, and I just remember trying to get her  attention, that I had to pee, I kept reachign down, she adjusted something and I hear a "whoooosh" and all the pressue was gone, my cathedaer was [...]

race is them, not me, them whites

I know that i Have mentioned this before, but I have been thinking about it again, with the shit show that is our lives, but White is a racist word, it has become the equivalent of the N word. "he is white"  that is a fkn slur, or I am "white" that is as racist ass you can get. I hear it now and cringe. Society has been able to loop all of everyone into a bleached white category, and nobody seems to notice.  this word is used to either promote Nazism or demonize people of caucasian ancestry. this is as plain as the nose on my face. eye for one am sick of it. I am not proud to be white, but I am proud to be British, Scottish, Norwegian, Icelandic, Swedish, Russian, and a wee bit of Irish, that is culture, but we [...]

all the kings men, could not put humpty dumpty back togehter

well that sums up how I feel about my health 🙁 I know that the cancer put a damper on my life expectancy, and the treatment, well it was just as devastating.  spilled milk now, the milk has been spilled, not much i can do except scoop some back in. I see people going through stressful times, and overeating and if there can be any kind of warning, just look at me, I may beyond the help of diet and exersize, but the worst culprit is stress, it will kill you 🙁 sad but true when I was drinking, stress was minimal, when I was gulping down whatever poison suited my fancy, not until I woke up did the stress start again, and sometimes, I just kept drinking, not much stress when your drunk, but not too good on your organs, or like brother kelly [...]

a little adversity never hurt anyone, or did it?

my life if full of adversity, The Stage 4 throat cancer is in the top ten, but my adversity of living with one eyeball has been a tougher sell, you know how many companies, want a  one eyed carpenter?  they prefer to run you off, especially in Arizona, but it is pervasive, I worked my ass off, and gave 100 percent of every job, what gave me this courage against all odds? what gave me the confidence to pull it off for many years?  MY BRO tally, helped, he once said, if another man can do it, I can do it. that and I have always, thought I was better, faster, the was from baseball, I played well, as a kid, without and real training, or foundation, as the other kids had. Mr Arispe gave me the chance, bless his family. But I [...]

War and life? is war life? why do we have to be in battle

I have had an epiphany of sorts recently, not a big one, but an epiphany of sorts I like to check up on people on Facebook, and see what they are up to, as I do not follow but a handful anymore, but recently checking up on my cousin Jim, I came across a post he had about the 33 strategies of War by Robert Greene, also writer of the 48 laws of power. Disclaimer: if I have to resort to "tactics" with people, I prefer to just minimize contact or delete contact, but in the world of " I HAVE BILLS TO PAY" that is not an option. One thing I realized listening to these War tactics, is that I have already integrated most of them into my "pay bill relationships" already. I prefer relationships based on mutual respect, with a focus [...]

my new found love, me self, self love baby

not masturbation either, but love thyself I know kinda goofy, kinda silly, kinda self centered? I have come to embrace my self, I have come to embrace that I am  a Native American, specifically an Eskimo (yupik/Inuit, mom says yupik, dna says Inuit, but they both were near the same area, near Nome, Alaska) my Aleut, and Athabascan roots, too,  which are supiaq or some other new Politically corrected, how do they even know, how to translate to english? by sound, was there an alphabet? that better left to the scholars.  I am Native, and Proud to be Native, yes, and I am embracing being Native, not for entitlements, but for the sheer joy of being proud of my ancestral past, that also mean  I am proud to be White too.  Yes, it is true I have white pride. although I prefer to be more [...]

Addictions, whether booze, food, or opiods, all are a death sentence

But in hindsight, we all going to die, so if dying 20 years earlier than a healthy life lead too, then by all means, keep gobbling up the pasta, white bread, and whiskey, they all just as deadly, and all a hindrance to a happier life, but I know, it is up to You, your the  only one, that knows your pain. Maybe your life is sad, perhaps, your only fun is a donut? the only time you feel happy, is gulping down Capt. Crunch O sorry, being a prick, this was me. drinking was the only time I felt normal, what the fk is normal?  what the masses are doing, hahahhahahahah yeah well your a sheep is that is your normal, just like the germ mans. Do we want to raise sheep? IT IS HARD NOT TO, I mean really, when do we even [...]

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